Disgusting

I disgust myself these days.
I haven't been able to work out because I was afraid of getting a bad cold during the concert period. But, I have been eating just as much, if not more, so of course I have gained weight. I hate it, and I feel disgusted by myself. I am not even hungry, but still I keep stuffing my face with food.
Today has been better though, I haven't eaten too much, so hopefully it'll get better. I don't want to look fat on the Christmas pics. Well, I am still not FAT, but you know what I mean. The problem is that I think I am getting that cold, so the dilemma is - should I just work out and get that cold or should I take it easy and try to get over it?
BAH!!!!! To hell with it, I want to work out.
See you in a skinnier lifetime! :P